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X'mas

2009-12-21T09:17:00.003+08:00

X'mas is just around the corner! Hope it is a festival of love and joy. Hope my fren will enjoy this festival.

I'm stil thinking shld i sign up for sundown marthaon... hmm, shld i? Stand char 2009 42km was a gd experience, but sundown was a tough 1.. so, shld i?

the naive me

2009-01-29T23:30:00.002+08:00

i am too naive.

i shld have learnt by now.

but still, i fall into it.

i am old enough to learn it by now.

it is getting irriating..

2009-01-04T19:45:00.003+08:00

Recently, my ex called me..

It has been years we nv contact each other. i so happy wif my life now. i wonder why he wants to get into my life again? he keep calling me almost everyday, it is so irriating. i ignoring all of his call, but he stil persistently calling me.

i realli find no reasons why he wants to contact me back.. irritating.. i wonder do he get the point. he even call and ask my frenz did i change my number or not. i mean if wan to irritate then juz do it on me will do, dun do those things to my frenz.

for normal people, if they cannot reach a person they will give up. but tat guy? oh my goodness, it is getting veri irriating.

i wan some1 to call me, he doesn't. but i dun wan my ex to call me,he called..omg..

***
adidas run is coming in May!

i wan to take part in the 42km run. but there are lot of ppl telling me to think b4 registering.

well, i know i am not a runner. i cannot run like the other runners. i only pick up running from the last standard char run. but i realli wish to get the 42km medal when i am young. but at the same point of time, i dunno shld i go for the run or not. coz i dun have those what fancy plans about the run. i dunno what cabohydrates meal, neither do i know what energy gel nor deep heat rub. i nv use those things b4. i realli dunno anything. haiz.

BUT but, i believe there are ppl like me. dunno anything but have the heart to go for it. YEAH! there will be alot ppl looking after me at the roadside of the run, so i shldn't worry. when other gals can do it, i can do it too!!!even though it is rough la..haha..but 1st i shall go for the night safari run to warm up!

night safari->adidas->stand char! YEAH!
i wonder are there any other runs in between of them.

***
i wish i have more time for myself.

Things happened over the short wk...

2008-12-25T22:27:00.004+08:00

I fall down last sat night. luckily no scars on my face. actually nothing much after the fall but juz tat i realise who are the people there to care for me. juz a simple fall, i can see who realli care for me or who dun realli care. some things actually happen recently, i realise it is not the amt of time u spend with your frenz. people who i nv spend time wif,care me more. suddenly i think who are my real frenz are?

recieved a x'mas card from a fren lately. i was shocked, happi but a but shame to recieve tat. coz she actually rem me. i knew her from the tution in pri sch. i dun even contact my own pri sch classmate and yet this fren stil rems me and kept my address. i am realli forunate and glad to know her as a fren. coz apart from her busy schedule, she can even rem me.. wow.. i shld find a chance to catch up wif her more.. :)

Like for example, recently was in a group where ppl in this gp known each other for 10+ years. i thought they are fun. so i joined then in their outing for a few years. i realli thought they accepted me as a true fren. But to my horror, i realise they dun. they dun even know what happen to me and dun even care to ask, even when i hang wif them alot. from here i realli know true real frenz are not build from the effort u put in it. i dunno y do i feel this way..

family, is realli important. i realise this more when i grew older. they supported me thru my down and rejoice wif me in my ups. i realli thk LORD for the family i grew up in. sometimes realli wish i can do more for my family, but it seems like.. haiz.. i will treasure them more than any other things.

talking about waiting for some1. a guy fren recently told me. a guy is not worth for u when he wants u to wait for him. i was thinking y shld i waste my youth for this kind of guy? well, even though i feel i and him have a few in common, as i think it is difficult to find some1 to have tat have commons wif me.. BUT.. haiz.. too bad. as what my guy fren explains to me the reason behind it, this change my mindset of waiting. even though i feel tat it is a bit pity.

seems like a lot of thinking went thru'this wk.. oh man, my brain cells.
but stil, wish all a merry x'mas 2008.

is alone gd?!?

2008-11-02T16:14:00.005+08:00

Just went by 2 malay wedding near my block just now. Sudden feel lonely. Ppl ard me are almost all attached. But i;m like still..hmm..i have been working now.. Always after work go home and the nxt day go work again, the same rountie.. and wkends i went shopping alone or meet up with the same gang.. i'm actually amazed by myself tat i can go shopping alone. well, i know it is not a big deal for most of the ppl. but i tend to be afraid to get lost even though i am in sg. And i scare to be alone outside. but now i tend to ask myself not to be scare, i can go out alone as most of frenz are either busy wif their other half or their own things. No 1 tend to spend time juz for me..so i went.. surprisingly, i can shop more and more focus and can achieve the aim of my shopping when i go out alone.. coz when i go out wif ppl, i tend not to go to see my things, as i scare ppl to wait..i do also feel lonely when i am out myself, but i shld spend sometime juz for myself, rather than always please the other parties..but i do stil like accompany..

i sudden feel like getting married in my 25. i wish to marry young and settle down.. but now i have yet to find any partner. i shld be blame for not being socialise when i am in poly and uni. and i shld be blame for not carefully choosing my partner and ended up like this now.. i was thinking shld i go SDU. frenz called me to take up recreational activites to make new frenz. but i realli dun have time for tat. i dun even have time for myself how can i go for those activites? haiz, sad..

tried to write anymore, will continue later...
am waiting for someone just for me...

airforce...PLIOTS!!

2008-09-02T22:34:00.002+08:00

went the RSAF show last sat.. a bit disappointed tat i am wearing GLASSES! sianz.. but here are some pics..actually i believe there are more pics, but somehow i nv manage to get hold of them,i wonder y... mayb i shld buy my own digital cam.. wonder which cam is gd! ha..

This F16-Pilot is veri nice-looking loh..haha.. stand beside him will make me look prettier..LOL

Crap, y i 4got to remove my glasses, i look UGLY**

Standing in front of Air-con, it was dam hot and sticky earlier in the day de..but rain in late afternoon which cause ur to trap in the shelters!

Lee Ji Ah?

2008-08-04T21:00:00.004+08:00

got ppl say i look like her.. do i? hehe.. i muz be more fairer in order to look like her de..
hhaah..she veri pretty de. i wish i have half of her fairness de...ha

fair, fairer, fairest....

2008-07-13T14:22:00.002+08:00

yeah.. finally there are ppl saying i look fairer nowadays le.. realli happi about it de..coz of all the money i spent on ermm.. ha.. yeah..
but i was wondering this is because of the things i use on my face or because of the long hrs i stay in office huh? hmm, well nvm.. i will stil continue and expand my whitening series..haha

recently have realli gained weight.. i think it is because i have eaten too much and sit too much in office le.. wanted to excerise but too lazy to do tat. haiz.. i shld save money to buy those gym cycles to put at home ba..ha

went see fireworks yesterday.. ha, muz wait til fren send me the pics then i can upload de..

ppl ard me are all getting attached, dunno y all of a sudden, so many de... hmm..

was't meant for me

2008-03-29T13:38:00.003+08:00

maybe it is the end of it

he nv even reply me

or is he simply too busy wif tat gal?

mayb wasn't meant for me

y this kind of things happen now?

i told him i was sad but he nv even care me

he juz keep on stressing he was rite

i wonder does he do this to his ex?

he nv realli care about what i think

everytime was he and his things

nv me...

i wonder how much am i to him

i think i am nothing to him

juz a passby normal gf to him...

Dilemma...haiz

2008-02-03T14:15:00.000+08:00

Went kbox again! this time is kbox buffet. ha.. it cost me 35 bucks.. diao.. no money liao.. well, the food there i can say are stil ok lah, nothing fancy.. onli tat there salmon! frozen cold ones! yeah..wanted to eat alot of salmon de, but then still need to sing, so no time to eat.. faints! and the chawamushi veri nice there, small portion juz enough for ladies! hehe...wanted to try the cakes de, BUT then, by the time i wan to eat and go take, NO MORE LE! omg, ji dan.. sianz..nvm, ha.. i think the chawamushi better ba, eat le will feel warm warm in the cold cold kbox room!

yeah i sing 你最珍贵 again de!! i think i will make it a point tat it is a muz sing song for me in ktv de.. ha.. i wanted to find "if we fall in love" and " always come back to your love" but both are not avaliable! sianz.. i thought kbox shld have the most range of song de.. but! DUN HAVE..stupid!

haiz, dunno y nowadays no more mood to study and dun feel like goin to sch or do fyp! omg de, last sem le, i stil like tat.. haiz... somemore stil dilemma between constulting firms and offshore co! haiz, normally ppl will tel me go offshore, but but... the constulting firm staffs treat me veri gd, even keep a place for me in office le, they even invite me to their chalets, annual dinner in fullerton and singing.. the staffs realli treat me as their "family" le, then if i say not goin there work, then veri what de.. omg, how ah.. dunno what to do.. i realli dunno where to go.. shld i go somewhere with "high pay +OT but a political company far fr my house, but a place i can work for 10 years (offshore)" or with "low pay -OT but happi place, near my house", which may onli have work in 3 years(small constulting firm)? fainting le... how to reject ppl who treat you so gd.. haiz...

frenz bday.. hehe..

2008-01-20T03:36:00.000+08:00

yeah. Gang and me celebrate our galfriend on 18 jan 08 (fri) at chevrons (even though tat day wasn't the actual date), hope she dun mind..but veri bad is tat need her travel all the way down here, so pai seh de.. some more she whole day le, then stil....hmm, but hope she enjoy it de....anyway, i think tat is the cheapest KTV tat i can find ba..haha.. my 1st time there and my 1st time to sing so much de.. ha!

Hope she happy with the celebration, coz every1 present there juz to celebrate her bday.. hehe.. coz most of the time got 1 or 2 ppl will not b there, but tat night all make it de.. ha..well, i think there will b an 2nd part KTV this comin wk, hopefully all will present then will be more fun!

Hope she like the present de.. muahaha..all muz meet again in cny.. yeah..
Looking forward for 2nd part KTV outing.Yeah!. hahah...~(*-^)~

Sec sch gathering 24th Dec 2007

2007-12-30T16:32:00.000+08:00

Taken at: Billy Bombers, Heeren Outlet

A day in Dolphin lagoon

2007-12-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

i went to dolphin lagoon 2day.. a fren of mine had free tickets, so asked me to go..so i juz tag along loh.. we all like dolphins alot and are fully-armed when we go inside (i.e wearing our bikini, unlike those unprepared ones who cannot get into the water w/o their bikinis..haha)..

we went to 2 sessions of the performance, both in the afternoon de..
hmm, for those who went there b4, should know that volunters are allowed to go into the sea to interact with the pink dolphins. i been there a few times, but this is my 1st time raising up my hand and the m.c. called me.. YEAH!

1st the volunters need to d the lu -la - hoop thingy, where the dolphin challenge with up on tat..
then we go into the sea to interact with the dolphins. we got the touch their skin, hug, kiss me, feed them, dance with me, touch its teeth(where there are green dirts in this teeth, ai yo.. but looks and feels alike to human sharp teeth) .. hehe.. these are the photos i brought $40.. argh, i got 3 other pics more, but no money so i cannot buy.. ARGH...
but nvm, my fren took a video.. hope can send me real quick..hehe..

Pink dolphins:

1) let me listen to ur heart beat

2) Dinner time

3) Goodby3 kiss

hehe.. realli happi.. muz thk my fren for tat..
well, i actually pray tat i wish 2 have a chance to go for the interaction.. then it was answered.. i was shock and realli happi. thkx GOD!!!

theory on dolphin:
1) pink dolphin will turn totally pink as they grow mature. (so the 1 i touch is quite young de..)

2) we need to feed when with small fish, with the head of the fish facing the throat of the dolphin..(mayb to prevent choking?)

3) their teeth are to get hold of the prey and not to bite.. they shallow the food(fish)

Last day..

2007-07-30T20:52:00.000+08:00

finally my last day of work last fri (27 jun 07)..
took some pictures of my fellow collegues..
these are the staffs from 3 companys which i work in, where the 3 co are co-partners. And ahh, awaiting for the comapny chalet with them at the end of aug..hehe
haiz, only few days then i started to miss them.. ai yo...ha

(haha, these are the "shi fu" where i work with.. taught me lots of things de..have lots of fun too de..nice ppl.. hehe..and always like to scold "ji dan" de..lol)

(ai ya, the "da jie da" not inside..dot de..and ahh, gp of ppl who can play ard wif de..haha, will miss them de.. hehe)

(this is another co-partner company de. on the right is the boss, Mr chow.. ppl who can still joke ard when project is "burning" the backside liao..ha)

(these are the few of ppl from my last IA)

(a few more ppl from my last IA, but too bad Miss chee resgin..)

brought some royce + cookies for them. some more they called me to treat them lunch. wah.. 80 over buck + 30 bucks of royce and cookies = dotz.. ha, nvm de.. since i rarely treat them things and they have taught me lots of things. learnt alot of things from the 3 co.. went PSA, Jurong island, Visual inspection (site), being a proffesional engg (designing), Accredited checker(checking)..but too bad that nv go to the construction site,but nvm. ha.. i was wondering to go back and work during my sch days, but thinking of fyp..will i have time to work? dotz..

haha, was happi wif my last pay = 1.8k ...lol.. was shock to see tat.. initally, they promise to give me 1.4, after that increase my pay to 1.6 due to the need to rush for proj and now getting 1.8k.. well, i know 1.8k is lower from an engg pay.. but getting paid and while learning things, i think it is worth it..

ahh..stopped work 1 wk before my sch so as to have my holiday..but i nothing to do, suddenly feel so free..sianz..wanted to go library but see the weather was like goin to rain, then i sianz..what to do de..

haiz..

2007-06-17T15:57:00.000+08:00

nv expect myself to wake up so late 2day. 3pm plus then wake up, then 4got to on my alarm..dotz

thought tat he will sms me and ask me go out. but he didn't.. he told me tat he will acc me to shopping in june, since GST is startin my july..but.. he didn't even ask me 2day. Am i askin much from him? dunno de lah

sometimes feel tat he doesn't realli ask my things in depth..or he isn;t my soulmate? i juz wan a bf to know more of my things in depth not juz surface caring. or mayb i askin too much from guys, As guys dun do these? but.. haiz.. so sianz, bored 2day. i wan to go out, but.. dunno de..is he realli for me or? sometimes, doesn;t feel hmm ...haiz..sometimes, realli like to have some surprises from him de, but he nv give me.. but he goin ORD le, no time to think of giving me surprises? he nv even read my blog liao, nv ask me what is my thinking in my heart, then .....

dunno what say liao..

===

yesterday went to sento wif frenz. i dun mind i onli gal actually. rain the whole day then nv get a chance to play vball, a bit disappointed. in fact,i actually like raining de, like the smell, sound and sight of rain. but if it rains i can't do the things i would like to do, onli can stay indoor.

y sg, no indoor beach.. ha.. when it rains, i stil can play/ go out.. ha..

took a few pics, awaiting for them to send me more..ha

ai ya,not realli in mood to blog liao.. bored and hungry..

what i am buzy wif..

2007-06-09T17:02:00.000+08:00

ISO Certify sushi buffet gathering.
these are the 3 company ppl that i work with during my IA..hehe

hehe, a photo wif 1 of my "shi fu" engineer
And 1 of my 3 boss treat sake..hah
after tat stil went to Kbox, all under company expenses..haha..

Stupid fren took a pic of me when i was working.. dotz..
so blury and ugly.

Went to sentosa recently, saw this "milky way", veri nice
there are stil more pics taken on tat day, by the "photographer" haven send me ya
went to sound of the sea, nice effects. bet the water sprays on us are SALT water!!
saw cafe del ma, hmm, nice place to chill out, mayb nxt time can go there..hehe

me at his working desk. went to his family day 2day de..then know a bit of what he is doing inside NS de..haiz, nv get a chance to see the guns.but at least i can tour the whole camp. coz i nv went in before. til now then i know, there are ppl call his 'sir' de.. ho ho.. then i veri "proud" standing beside..lol

picture wif one of my frenz in party world. he ORD loh..lol, i think tat is the happiest thingy the guys can experience in my age now ba..ha

picture wif one of frenz in suntec, PC show. went wif ren wei ah, jia yao ah and guo yuan de
was daring each other to wear the sherk hair band for the whole day and when to see sherk 3..lol..then so many ppl was watching us as we go pass. funni..but funz de.

hmm, actually had some pics on jurong island and PSA terminal de. but i dun think can upload in web. so, too bad.. ha

and ah, those have green dates on the bottom of the pic are taken by my hp. nice hor. haha

2007-05-14T22:11:00.000+08:00

sick..
big headace until i wan bang wall
running & block nose
feverish
watery eyes
coughing
tired
where is he?
or he did nt even know
he neither read my blog nor msn

y always suffer alone?
nv slp well last night
need to go site visit to PSA 2day
need to rush my project til night
left office at 8.30pm
head pain until cannot walk
but stil need to pull myself to get home
where he?
haiz..
realli felt tat i am alone
stil have my pay unsettle

i think i muz turn to LORD for help
i am neither spritual bastip nor in water
will i get help?
i pray to HIM alot 2day to help me to get home faster..
but..
realli dunno anything now..
LOST but stil need to carry on wif my stuffs
there is no time for me to rest awhile and think..
so many things happen at a time..
realli feel shack..

seems like no1 is there 4 me..

crazy.. y can't he do the things i wan to..

2007-05-01T14:37:00.000+08:00

2day thought of either goin out to play or go his house to watch movie..
but then...
he ask me to go out wif he and his frenz to watch movie..
i was like.. huh?
haiz
i was wondering which place i stand bet he and his "frenz" or so call bros..
everytime when his "bros" need him,he SURELY will be there for them..
whereas for me? when i need him, he is where? camp? sleepin? unavaliable or what?
dunno what is this goin on..
are they his bros or do they have sth within?
thought that 2day holiday then i can relax and go out play, but..
everytime he promises me always like tat?
he told me he is goin to borrow sherk 1 and 2 for me to see so tat i can catch part 3.. BUT?
i dun understand y guys like to tok until so nice, but yet.. are they trying to make gals happy for a moment? or they juz simply 4got what they say? haiz...
juz feeling tat i and his have sth missing..
we dun do things/be like a normal couple does..
normal couple have small little secrets within them, but we all?
i bet he told my things to his whoever..
so what is the point of i tellin him my things..
therefore, few wks ago i started not telling him what i am doin and he did not realise it.
i think he onli care about him bros them me..
all the prob i had he dunno..
he dunno anything about me..
he says he dun like force ppl..
ok fine then, i wil nv put him in my mind anymore...
i will not care anymore and i realli mean it..
if he does not even feel difference, then tat's it..
i bet if i go out/ even date wif other guys, he will not even know..

golfyyyyyyy

2007-04-11T21:44:00.000+08:00

i was wondering will you all be able to view this clip.. juz a clip from my golf shooting range.. i juz up loaded this clipy

Can't Fight The Moonlight

2007-04-11T21:28:00.000+08:00

LEANN RIMES LYRICS

"Can't Fight The Moonlight"

Under a lovers' sky
Gonna be with you
And noone's gonna be around
If you think that you won't fall
Well just wait until
Til the sun goes down

Underneath the starlight - starlight
There's a magical feeling - so right
It'll steal your heart tonight

You can try to resist
Try to hide from my kiss
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark
You'll surrender your heart
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight
No, you can't fight it
It's gonna get to your heart

There's no escape from love
Once a gentle breeze
Weaves it's spell upon your heart
No matter what you think
It won't be too long
Til your in my arms
Underneath the starlight - starlight
We'll be lost in the rhythm - so right
Feel it steal your heart tonight

You can try to resist
Try to hide from my kiss
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark
You'll surrender your heart
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight
No you can't fight it
No matter what you do
The night is gonna get to you

Don't try then
You're never gonna win

Underneath the starlight - starlight
There's a magical feeling - so right
It will steal your heart tonight

You can try to resist
Try to hide from my kiss
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark
You'll surrender your heart
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight
No, you can't fight it

You can try to resist
Try to hide from my kiss
But you know
Don't you know that you can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark
You'll surrender your heart
But you know
But you know that you can't fight the moonlight
No, you can't fight it
It's gonna get to your heart

hehe.. golf

2007-04-07T23:32:00.000+08:00

ha, finally i got a chance to touch the club le..(golf)
wanted to learn golf for a long time le..
now then have a chance to touch tat

went to cdans to play de..
borrow ppl's club to practise..

then was trying to get my position correct, a coach stepped in..
he hold my hand then leg then straightened my back..
initally realli feel offended, coz teach me in this manner.. weird de..
but through tat i know how to position myself and shoot the ball
well, even though tat ball didn't go far..
but at least i hit it de..

still find a bit offened by that coach de.. weird...

cannot slp de..

2007-03-30T00:19:00.000+08:00

sianz, cannot slp. even though wkend is comin. haiz, he went oversea training and will b onli bac mid of nxt mth. sianz, i will b alone and facing my report. dunno how to start writing. i realli dun understand what is the use of writing the report. i thought IA is for the benefit of the student, but stil yet want us to crack our brains and waste out time on the stupid >1,500 words report? this serve as part of the IA assesment? siao. when come bac from office veri tired le, then stil need to think how to write the stupid formal report, crap. i thought the grade shld be given by the supervisor mah, not the prof rite? dotz..

was wondering whether to go bac to my IA co to work after i have graduated. coz the staffs ask me. a bit regret on not choooing surbana for my IA, coz now then i know tat is a sub -HDB de..but still, i learnt alot of things in my current IA co. hate my supervisor, always "peep" at me, even though he was an ex-ntu student who also been attached to the same co. thought he will understand how a student feel when he/she was kanna "peep" by his/her supervisor mah.. siao.. the way he "peep" as ppl like pervert de.. coz he is short-sighted, but NV wear glasses, so he had to screen(dunno how to spell) his eyes to see sth far/small. when i think of tat face, i wan to vomit. a person always forgets his things, and need me/other staffs to remind him. wah liao, he is an senior engg leh, some more want to apply for PE. i bet his co sure collapse if he set up one.. ha

haiz, so late le.. stil cannot slp.. now then i know the feel whereby ppl say "studying is better than workin". i agree on tat how to some extend. i wan to go bac study than having my IA..everyday so long hrs.. tired.. but at least now he is slowly giving me the whole project to handle, a bit stress de.. ha

haiz, i was wonder how much does it cost to send an sms oversea de.. wanna sms more to him, but scare the extra charges will kill me down.. so i muz cut to the minmum..

i think i better get in my bed..nitez all and my stil in oversea de him..

hehe.. new blog skin

2007-03-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

ha, had my new blog skin up liao..
but i stil prefer my last blogskin de..
coz it has been too long le, then feel like changing it.. so.. ha
wanna find sth ard the same type as the last skin de, but too bad, i can't find any..
shld i change it bac?dunno de.. ha
mayb got time then search sth nicer and much more impressive..

last few wks, i had recieved a letter that i was entitled to free coloured lens..

wahhh...very happy de. i thought of buying coloured lens for ages,but now i can get it for free.
it comes in blue, green, hazel and gray de..
now i can try all the colours.. hehe
btw, tat pic is using my hp to take..
ha, finally i get to use my cam phone le..
was wondering whether to buy a bluetooth adapter,coz it seems veri troublesome to pluck and unpluck the cable to my phone.. ha

hate IA. no time to do my own things. cannot slp more either.
i word to describe it "sianz"
well, even though i learnt alot, but i rather study then work.. ha..

haiz, he goin off nxt wed de..left me alone in sg now..
sianz, realli hope he can call me, but i think it will b ex lah..
so forget it..

sianz...

2007-01-20T21:02:00.000+08:00

2day went out wif him de..
then he gave me SK ear ring.. :)
veri nice.. like it alot... :)

haiz, i have been in attachment for 2 wks le.. stil got 20 wks to go.. so sad.. haiz.. hate my supervisor.. stupid him.. always 'peep' on me.. i dunno he peep on me to see what i am doing or what de...i wear covered clothes mah, so he muz be looking at me on what i am doin de.. hate it..it is like a person standing by my side looking on what i am doin.. i did all his work on time de, but he stil... haiz... the worst thing is that he call me to go BCA to submit money for him.. what the hell is this.. i go for attachment is to learn leh.. not as a office gal leh... some more call me to go binding, photocopy, fax, scan, etc.. crap lah..

the worst thing of all is, the boss called me to go bac ntu to BORROW books for him.. what is this man.. 1st time hear tat attachment student are required to go bac sch for the boss.. !!! argh!!! some more all the books i find all not avaliable.. then ended up muz go find other books for him.. argh.. the company no money to buy ref. books is it.. crap and POOR company.. argh..
then i requested to return the book for him.. but then he say " i will return it for u." what the hell lah..i dun think he will return it on time de loh.. haiz, if he doesn't then i need to pay for the books? crazy de.. haiz

i wonder what other stun will my boss and supervisor b giving me.. insane company..hate it.. so more so small also.. they are juz treating me like a bangala i think... crap.. i think i better jot down in my log book and my final report to let ntu tutor know.. argh!! but well, i think the tutor will juz open 1 eye and close 1 eye de... so, haiz.. there is nothing i can do..

ppl may think tat i can juz simply complain to my sch directly, but got to think de.. i stil got 20 wks to go.. if i now complain, then the rest of my life over there will b even more miserably le.. sianz.. let the days go pass faster.. or juz set a fire in the office, etc.. dotz..

nothing to say.....

2007-01-14T21:57:00.000+08:00

saddness...
something bad happen to my family..
thought that he will b by my side to concern me.. but yet he NV
not a single CONCERN..
he told me tat he dunno what to SAY
is tat an excuse?
or he juz simply dun CARE what had happen to me?
he even can go out to enjoy while having me ALONE to face the issue all myself
not a single CALL..
onli SMS me after a few days when i told him about it..
what is this?

am i asking too much?
i dun think so..
i juz wan a simple sms to say 'am i alright? is there anything tat i can help?'
but NONE of this came to me..
saddness
i have nothing to say anymore..

in the past he also nv realli concern about me..
he get me under the sun and cause me had rashes..
i wan chalet, he say no
i wan sth, he promise buy me, but where? burnt for me is it?
etc..
wanted to go out wif him on sat, as wanna relieve from my 1st wk of IA, but he say no and yet go out wif his fren...
what does he treat me as?
'song' then meet me?
or is he PLAYING wif me?
y is this happening?
sad sad sad...

nothing to say...
from now on i wil onli think for myself..juz as he did in the past..

jungle song

2007-01-05T13:12:00.000+08:00

jungle song

juz find this cutey, so tat is y i upload it..

ha.. nothing to do at home..argh, got to go for my attachment nxt mon.. so sickening.. realli hope that they will shorten my workin hours.. i will b working for half a year over there, some more i am the onli 1 been attached to that company, haiz, i think i will b sianz... i wonder y did i choose that company at the 1st place.. regreted..

cable car sentosa

2006-12-24T15:10:00.000+08:00

yeah.. yesterday he brought me to sentosa to take the cable car ride..
well, i nv been on cable car in my life, so this time is my 1st time trying it..hehe
if i rem it correctly, it is about 10 plus bucks per person de..this includes a trip from habourfront center->sento->mount faber -> and bac to habourfront center..

nice to b at the top to see the whole view of the area..it was lucky tat it was neither raining or too glazing de.. nice wind up there and weather.. hehe..but then stil feel tat they shld 'enlarge' the window holes, to allow more wind to swirl in mah..if not it will not be nice...hehe..

then we stop at mount faber.. get to the faber point and stand at the top.. realli nice breeze de.. ha..feeling tat i am flying ..lol.. hmm, can see the CBD area and stuffs..hehe..then juz walk ard there and find tat they shld develop there more man, coz there are not places for ppl to walk and tour to..mayb it is a play for couples to 'tuo qing' at night ah? lol..hmm, then took pics and get bac le loh..

after tat we went to orchard, wah, human congestion de.. ppl keep pushin here and there.. argh..then i bet if ppl go down today will surely get molested..diao...we went to see the lightings de..then walk walk loh..hehe..

ha, later at night meeting him to his fren house. realli hope tat there is a log cake there, coz i nv eat b4 de..hehe...yeah yeah..

1 Litre of Tears - 9 March

2006-12-17T16:21:00.000+08:00

[MV] 1 Litre of Tears - 9 March

jap drama to recommend : 1 litres of tears
told by a fren about this show.. thkx her for tat de..hehe

it is a true live touching story.. lots of crying parts..it is about how a young kid of 15 years old, fighting a disease called Spinocerebellar Degeneration..was wondering is this disease cured now?

here is a MV,hehe enjoy, cute main actor and actress..hehe

masquerade party

2006-12-14T23:47:00.000+08:00

he he, juz now went to masquerade party(formal party de)..but too bad i dun have a nice mask.. i onli able to find those party mask.. haiz..
i have seen ppl wearing lots more nicer masks, where u can see them in movies of masquerade party.. those balls, where ppl dance ard with their masks.. olden movies de.. so nice.. some got those masks from overseas..nice nice..hehe..some got feathers, bells, gilters.. etc.. veri nice.. i wish i had took those pics down for u all to see.. ha...but too bad... hope my fren send me then i can upload here.. hehe..

hmm,it is held at quailty hotel, novea there de..then we all sing songs, have candles, buffet, gift exchange and the best of all is lucky draw.. too bad i nv get the lucky draw.. there are 3 lucky draw prizes.. 3rd is hamper from body shop i think, 2nd is creative zen, 1st is home theater system.. i like the 1st prize man.. too bad my IC wasn't called. the lucky lady gets the system..bless her..lol...

i saw 1 of the contestant of project superstar, 4got her name de short hair de; and also saw 1 of the finalist of miss singapore universe 2005, she look veri pretty ah, tall and slim de, look nice is her dress de.. hehe...

hmm, other than this i dun realli like my exchanged present de, a calculator holder, sad.. thought the gift muz b over 10 bucks? y it seems the giver get it for free.. i shld have hold on to the voucher when i exchange earlier. haiz.. but it is the rules of the game, keep changing the present on ur hand wif another until the music stop.. haiz.. well, nvm.. know alot ppl tat nite, so it might b worth it.. coz i had seen engineers of my line, teachers, kids, stars and etc...

but at the end, i stil muz thk my fren to bring me over de, if not i will rot at home nothing to de..lol..hehe..

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Frog Sashimi:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DOUnjB6SPxE

exams comin le...

2006-11-05T17:39:00.000+08:00

so bored at home, while having stacks of work to do.. argh...dun understand y prof like to torture us..exams coming up in a weeks time.. stress up..wanna meet him also no time.. hope that he is understanding for me..he flying off again, this time to australlia, for a few wks..he departing during my exam wk.. haiz, how to send him off? some more he is onli coming bac to sg onli a wk after my end of exam.. haiz.. so sianz.. like tat who to enjoy with when he is overseas..(*stil thinking...)

ha, was thinking about the holiday wif him after my exams and his trip.. wondering what kind of suprises he is goin to give me..hmm..hehe..dunno where he bringing me too.. acutally wanted to go overseas wif him for the holiday, but will my parents allow? realli hope they would.. but... it seems so hard to get their consent.. i know i am 21, but my dad thinking was too conservative.... like for example cannot b late home and etc.. omg, how i wish their mind are more open as we are in 21th centary man..hope that will come true.. i dun wan them to control my life.. in the past they had been controlling my freedom and stuff, and i had lost a opportunity to meet people, places and exciting events..but now, i am turning old.. alot of things i cannot juz do in my own will...realli wan to b 21 yrs old 4ever..nv turn old..

JOke of the day-->
NTU Student survey - Funny comments
link:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOqXlbWf9Io
hopefylly this link works..Enjoy..ha!!remember to turn on ur speakers!!
now then i know prof can show our comments to ppl to see ..lol

Lee hom concert

2006-10-22T22:49:00.000+08:00

yeah, yesterday was my 1st time to a concert..happi
coz nv go b4..
he paid for my tickets $128 if i not wrong..
veri fun de.. happening too..
that is the onli concert that he will be holding in this year man, so if miss this chance onli can wait til nxt year, so that is y alot ppl came from overseas, like from jap,malaysia, sg of course,hmm, even hk and thai..lol..

now then i found out that lee hom is a talented young man..
he played er hu, paino, drums,sings well, nice looking, know how to write songs, speaks well(especially when he speaks in eng, like tat..hehe), nice body(opps..hehe)....some more he sings his love songs wif so much feeling inside..hehe..

but dunno y i dun feel that he perform to his best on that day.. mayb he was tired out of his film making.. coz he mention that yesterday was the onli day the director let him off to come to sg for the concert.. he muz be tired.. but he stil made it to the end..hehe..

well, about the special invited guest, is the ke you lun..dun like his voice.. coz when he duet wif lee hom, his voice ruin lee hom's song..stupid him..

and other then ke you lun..there are other guests too...like kit chan,singapore idol taufik (dunno how to spell), olinda and some1 form dreamsFM(dunno the name)..ha..i was rather shock to see taufik.. coz he know how to listen to lee hom songs meh, in chinese leh...dotz de.. some more sit 1st row..lol..siao de..anyway, can see lee hom then gd le.. nice voice, even thought alot sore sore de...but contented le..HA!!

the sad part is, when entering the indoor stadium (my 1st time there),there are free gift given.. but we dunno.. so we took a shortcut in rather than a round about the get the pong pong pong thingy(the 2 red,long balloon stick, where u hit then together in concert de).. sad.. then i also wanna have the light stick de.. he NV buy 4 me, coz he say he go concert nv buy/ take all this de...crazy ah..haiz.. SAD de.. i see ppl all taking then i dun have... some more is my 1st time to a concert leh..haiz.. y can't he make something more happening for me.. he on tat day call me muz shout out for lee hom.. HOW to man? dun have this dun have tat. then my mood gone le..dotz..sianz...nvm..

well, at least he brought me there.. i shldn't ask tat much de.....
too bad dun have a cam to take pics. haiz..and my hp cam so lousy cannot take too..
but got cam also no use, onli can get secret shots, coz will get caught if take/ film pics...
anyway, a fun night..hehe..

Goong Perhaps Love MV

2006-10-12T03:02:00.000+08:00

Goong Perhaps Love MV

GOong Perhaps love.. luv this song alot.. nice nice!!

Ha, no time to blog.. so 'kapo' this from youtube on here.. hehe.. realli like this drama alot..hehe..i watched it on youtube,coz cannot wait to see this finish, as if i wait for TV to show, i will chase until siao.. so watch youtube better..

think this drama is quite 'hot' now.. hehe...and 'yul' veri handsome de...like him alot..HEHE!!

where r u??

2006-09-14T22:46:00.000+08:00

whenever u need me, i can phone u/meet u...
But.... whenever i need u, u are always on duty,work, sleepy and etc...so who do i look for when i need someone to b wif me, since u are so busy...any1?

2day juz finish 1 of my quizes, was every happy, wanted to share wif him, so i call him up to meet..initally, he agreed.. so i was planning what movie to watch.. but then when meeting time reaches, he told me he was unwell to meet..so i of course was sad.. nvm about this.. thought tat i will be able to phone him at night, BUT, he say he need to tune in, as he was tired.. haiz, was wanted to share wif him what happen in sch 2day and stuffs, but he was not there for me to share wif.. so what is the point of him being wif me? well, i not saying that we muz meet everyday, but at least a phone call? haiz, so sad.. every couples out there will contact each other now and then, knowing what each other was doing. but for me??? i onli know, he take half day off and went back to rest,wake up eat and slp again.. y he need so much slp? dun he feel awaken after the 1st nap? stil can slp now? haiz.. whatever.. no matter what i dun care anymore, he wants to betray me or go out wif other gals, was none of my biz.. i simply dun care anymore..

sometimes i think, what am i to him...i save up so much juz to give him a wallet for bday.. but for mine, he juz anyhow buy something for me.. is that what a guy will do when he says that he likes the gal alot? does he think what the gal wants/ needs?? or does he simply juz want some1 to be there for him but not the other way round?? so sad...he always say he put in alot of effort on me, but i juz cannot 'see' tat..so....hmmm.. i dunno...

haiz, 3 more quiz coming up... realli hope to finish them soon, then will b my 1-wk vacation.. but tat will b burn out my by projects and revisions..so sad..realli hope he can take a day off juz for me, coz he took half day off juz for himself, so will he do for me?
well, i doubt he will, he juz dun realli take me into account in his list of things to do.. so y am i wif him? so sianz, i 'think' i muz find 'some1' when he is not free..

i wan tat>>>>digital cam!!

2006-08-22T11:44:00.000+08:00

haiz, realli wan to have a ditigal cam in my life.. either nikon or canon..y my bf nv buy tat 4 me.. i thought tat he will know tat.. haiz.. not is after my bday le, if i ask him for another present it will b so rude de... haiz..some more i think this kind of cam is not tat cheap too.. how much? hmm, 300-400 bucks? or more huh? i also dunno, as i nv had a digital cam in my whole entire life..haiz

need to go NIE buy books again...by3.. short of money now.. argh.. sianz de.. can money fall from sky?? how i wish this will happen.. day-dreamingzZZ time.. by3~~~

:D

2006-08-07T00:46:00.000+08:00

hehe.. had my party on sat de.. then invited some of my frenz and relatives..haha.. so many persents.. hehe.. i hereby, thkx u all for coming all teh way down to my house.. sori tat nv book chalet, as in budget de..hope u all like the food, heard alot ppl say tat the tom yam soup was nice.. hehe.. my grandma help me cook most of the food, muz thkx her for makin the trouble to help me de.. ha..

i recieve necklaces, bags, mp3 speaker(eyrone<--dunno did i spell correct or nt,winne the pooh de..), perfume and the best of all HANG BAO!! lol.. then i can buy wat i realli wan.. thkx for the presents de.. i realli like tat, as i can use it..as long as i can use them i veri happi liao.. hehe.. thky..

these are some of the pics de.. ha.. ha, nv take many pics wif relatives.. too bad..hehe..
hmm, come gone bac too early liao, so nv manage to take photo wif them.. ha.. i shld have taken a pic on my present.. but i unwrap liao then think of tat, then nvm ba..ha..

haiz, party over then now sch open le.. sad, muz face those crazy books again.. ha..after my real bday is over, then i will b 21 laio then i can see......R21 movies..HAHA..wanna see wat they show de..lol...nitez, need slp as sch early tml,sad de.. haiz..cannot slp leh...bb

p/s: thkx cat for lendin me cam and huiru to take photos for me.. hehe

:D Party time!!

2006-07-27T20:19:00.000+08:00

yeah.. happi, finally can have my bday party settle abit, then now onli wat for the day to come and buy some food to stock at home..hehe....

Party:
Venue : my house
Date : 5th Aug 06
Time : 6 pm
all muz come hor, hehe.. hope u guys are free on tat day to come de..

yuppi and muz thkx cat tat i borrow cam fr her.. hahaha
actually thought of inviting my game frenz too.. but my house too small lah.. so bo bian.. hehe..

ha,2day got my Golden key liao.. hehe. happi de..hahahaha
well, i go bac to my game liao.. :)

am i too hard on u??

2006-07-10T03:25:00.000+08:00

as u all know my bf is workin as an officer.. haiz.. always no time for me.. now i holiday then wan him to spend more time on me also cannot, he always got endless meeting, running, training and even duties on wkends, haiz..then i how? rotting at home then happi when he say he can meet me out, then on the day b4 meeting, he say sori he cannot make it.. haiz.. i seems to b like a dog who awaits for his master to come home for dinner and a walk outside.. haiz

i know it has been hard on him. he neither have enough time to rest nor accompany his family. then i onli as his gf ask so much on him, haiz, am i tat bad? i juz miss him mah, then my holiday leh, so wanted to spend more time wif him and go places tat i always wanted to go. but then it seems tat this will not b fulfill ba. sad de.. i always see gals have their bf to accompany them then me dun have, haiz.. veri sad..he cannot ask for a day or 2 leave juz to acc me mah.. or have i ask too much liao?

actually he veri patient to me liao, coz always listen to my naggin and care to sms and tok to me on phone. but the frequency of tokin on phone was so little until sad, onli 1-2 time on phone a wk then onli can meet on wkends. but if he got duty on wkend, then i even sad.. argh, muz curse his boss for doing this, arhg...

haiz, can he have more and i realli mean MORE time wif me de..."MORE" !!! ha, then no need go so crowded places mah, can go those small cafe then sit in the sofa then eat cake, yummi. but of course not othes starbucks or coffee bean, coz too many ppl liao, hmm, go those unique place loh.. ha, or go picnic in sento or east coast, gd idea.. i muz propose this to him(officer)..lol..then i make sandwich/burgers, he buy drinks..lol.. yeah, then i sit and listen to the waves..muahahaha..then see his 6 packs..muahhahaha..oops..shh, dun let him know..lol, he say he got those packs, so muz see..~evil laugh*~

so sianz, nothing to do then i blog, i think every1 read my blog until sianz, i always tok about bf, ha.. i think i muz change topic nxt time.. ha

Meeting gaming frenz..

2006-07-02T15:26:00.000+08:00

ha, yesterday was tiring. when to meet bf b4 i attend my workshop at somersta there. when to eat wif him, as he juz book out and i need eat too.

then cat and me go workshop. ha, veri happy. finally, i can use the skills i gain in the workshop liao. i seems dunno anything about skills and yet others have a bit of knowledge. nvm, hardworkin can liao.. ha.. haiz, spend 30 over bucks on the essential items, then mew mew say it is consider cheap laio, but haiz, i need more money for other things.. argh..but was a enjoyable course to attend lah.. ha.. muz thkx mew mew to call me to attend the course de. then we also attend another new course, argh, more money gone!!!

hmm, then after tat meet my bf had chili crab outside ngee an city, ha.. it is chili crab festival, nice nice.. hehe.. after eating crab, bf acc me to marina square for steamboat. coz frenz from my conquer guild treat, then ask me to join. i have rejected them alot of times,so think tat this time i shld not, coz i realli wan to see them in real person rather then juz tokin to them in game w/o knowing their faces..lol..nice frenz ard. free food..lol..then the funny thing is tat when they discuss about the stagery of the game, it seems tat they are talkin about real biz..lol, so engrossed..ha.. then eat until veri late, luckily the guild leader send the gals bac home..he speed car leh, nice.. nice speed..nice turning of car, but a bit dizzy too..lol.. enjoyable to know more ppl ard.. hehe..hope to meet them soon can communicate more.. haha~

Goin to meet bf later, see ya~

No money!!

2006-06-29T23:14:00.000+08:00

this sat goin to have a workshop. then need money to buy the things. but dun have money.. haiz.. veri sad de..actually, i save some money de, but then i bought a electronic shaver for him, then now teribbly BROKE!!haiz, so SAD de.. i onli have tat much of money to pay for the workshop, but he essential stuff how? borrow money fr ppl meh? haiz.. dun like to borrow things de, coz dunno will til when then can return them. then wanna ask fr bf, then i pai seh to ask. as thought he will mind de, coz he break up wif his ex coz of this issue.. haiz, what to do?!? SAD lah..MONEY PLS FALL FR SKY.. ha.. i muz b dreaming de.. haiz.. I NEED MONEY.. argh..

my bf actually got ask what i need. but at the same time, he say tat this mth, he not much money to spend liao, then how on earth i can ask him about it? then it is not gd to spend other ppl's money de..haiz,hope tat GOD tells him to give me "hang bao" ... lol..

but reali hope he like, no no i shld say hope tat he love the shaver i bought him, as if not i will kill myself. coz i use my money on his things instead of the those i actually planned to buy!!!argh!!

night safari..:)

2006-06-25T23:49:00.000+08:00

21th bday.. hehe, it is coming closer and closer. well, i think i will b holding tat at my house instead of in a chalet, as it is so inconvenient for me to travel down there and minimum need to book for 2 nights rather than juz 1 day.. :) i will contact u all again.. hehe

heh, 2day went to night safari, as we have complementary ticket..:) this is the 1st time for my bf and i to step into night safari. so it was rather "fresh" to us..we got a great nite. it was rather fun, but was a bit sort of disappointed as we did not realli get to see lots of animals. i thought tat we can see alot, but onli little of them. hmm, it was luck tat it did not rain at evening time, if not we will b drenched. the weather was rather nice, not humid nor hot. so, we had nice trail walkin and also roam ard in tram. :) but too bad tat both of us dun have camera, cannot realli capture the nice moments we had down there..wasted.. hehe..

hmm, there is 1 thing tat i dun understand y. recently i meet frenz, when i was wif my bf. of course when they saw us, the normal human thinkin is tat they will tok to me as they r my frens. BUT they actually tok to my bf instead and nv even leave their eyes on him. and fuck care whether i am beside him. and when tat fren wan to convey the msg, she can juz tel me, but instead he wait til my bf is bac and tel him. well, does it matter tat she juz tel me? wat for muz tel my bf directly eye to eye? i fuckly hate this kind of frenz, what do they treat me as? invisible? if tat so, can i do tat bac to their bf? i think i shld.. haha..revenge..lol, i seems to b evil..but if u all ever met the same situation, u will do the same man!!are these girls trying to seduce my bf? lol..is there a need? or are they sick of their bf? or do they wan me to seduce their bf instead? lol .. the evil me... ha..well, i juz realli dislike their behaviour onli..or have i think too much? but this does not happen once, but so many times tat make me think in this way..argh..

:) pool as a sport for me??

2006-06-22T01:32:00.000+08:00

miss him again..lol.. hate him for makin me miss him.. argh..
stupid him lah.. ha..
realli hope tat he can get a mth off to acc me.. but then this will not happen de..haha..

sianz, nowadays at home nuthing to do..
i wan to earn money, but then lazy to find job and lazy to wake up early.. ha..
haiz..

suddenly think tat i wan to learn pool..i mean not juz learn for leisure, but go for competition de..
ha, i think too far liao, coz my basic are stil not gd.. ha, i will practise more de, since i able to find teacher to teach me for free..ha..imagine tat i am in the national team..lol.. ha, think too much.. ha..

Disgrace?

2006-06-19T22:52:00.000+08:00

Recently, he got a bday party by his ns men. Obviously, he as an officer muz go. But the problem is that he does not bring me there. I have been askin myself, what is the reasons for him not to bring me. Mayb because i am not pretty, who does not put on makeup or does not realli know how to dress up or being too kiddy in front of people. Or am i a disgrace to him? i know that i am not as pretty as his sec sch frenz, who dress up and make up(who he see until his eyes pop out) .if tat is so, what for he wants to be wif me?I mean if he afraid that his ns frenz to see me, then find someone prettier or knows how to talk like a presenter that will not disgrace him, this will realli do. I mean if he realli mind, i can juz zip up my mouth and dun tok on tat day, i can juz smile will do. is tat so difficult to bring me to there? Do will throw his face? Mayb i do. but in terms of qualifcations, i goin to have a degree. then he? what does he have? a diploma onli? a uni student like me, i have a much more freedom to choose someone wif a same qualification and not a diploma holder. in future, i will earn more then him. so what is the use of he wif me? i did not even look down on him on his qualification, and yet he treat me in this way. i realli dunno what he as a guy is thinking about. if he does not want me to go, what for tel me about the event that he is havin? right now, his ns fren is goin to marry and invited him over and same as usual, he is not goin to bring me to.

and some more, i cannot even access to his wallet, bag or even photos. i always envy those gf tat can juz anyhow take their bf wallet or bag to take the things they wanted or even can proudly show their bf wallet's photo to me.. i even dun have the change to have a small peep on them then no need to say access to them. he look into my bag and take things without my acknowledgement and i cannot see his things. i mean i dun mind he lookin into my stuffs, but in turn he dun not even let me have access or even peep into.. what is the world goin to? haiz. he can access to mine and i can't to his?

he as an officer do not have much time wif me. and i had to wait til wkends then i got a chance to see him and sometimes, he have duties and we ended up not meeting. so what is the difference of me being wif a normal ns men? now then i know why there are so many break ups between ns men and their loved ones. i did not even realli scold him for not being have time wif me and i do not go out wif other guys. he does not even give me a necklace, i mean at least a bracelet or hairclip will do. i am not asking to have anything fr tiffany or citigems, i mean juz anything from ,err like for exmaple, perlin silver, a bracelet will juz cost 10- 20 bucks onli.that is consider cheap to him who is an officer. but what did i get? haiz. or shld i not put so high hopes on him or have i ask TOO much from him? mayb to him i am a spolit kid. he even ask whether do i know how to iron clothes. I can admit tat i dunno how to. i know as an female, this kind of simple stuffs, we are "expected" to know how to do. i mean i will surely learn but mayb not now. as i wanted to focus on my studies. haiz, dunno what a guy is thinkin.

oh, tok about studying. i am realli mad at this. recently, i got bac my results. i did not realli do tat well as to compare to last sem, even though i had passed all. but i am veri sad about my results, so i sms him to tel him about tat. in tat period, i did not realli blame him for not realli give me more concern, as he is having outfield. But the worst ever thing is tat he sms me back that what is my results, and told me that his bro(he is also an lecture mate in ntu wif me) had called him. As a normal person will know that his bro called him to know my results. and instead of my bf to console me, he in turn help his bro to ask me. WTF. i am terrible sad about my results and he nv even console me and now he even help his bro. so this tells us tat a gf cannot b compared to a 10 over yrs bro. and also tells us tat not all things can b told to our bf, as they will in turn tel their bro. as we, gals muz have some self-control to refrain fr telling too much of our stuffs.

ha, think i tok to much, later his bro tel him what have i blogged then my bf sure quarrel and angry to me. haiz, i have no freedom of speech.

'missing u' by fly to the sky..

2006-06-18T01:50:00.000+08:00

well, my legs are aching. today, i went to my bf house. Finally can see him for so long. i onli got the chance to see him on wkends. so sad. I had be wif him for quite sometimes, but we onli got so little time to get together. haiz. Realli hope tat we can meet more. I mean i dun mind tat we dun go to those crowd places or shopping. i juz wan some private time to sit down and talk. it does not realli matter tat we dun talk, but i realli like the feeling tat he is sitting beside me, so comforting, and i lay down on this shoulder =) i realli like to hug his arm, an officer trained arm of course nice to hug.lol, muz not let his know this, if not he will "fly" to the sky.haha. i wonder how does he feel being wif me.

then we went over to titiek's house for her bday.the food was quite nice. i like the chili fishballs..nice..hehe..yummi.. after a short while, my bf and i went to bugis. had a short window shopping. then he say wanted to go Z-pop(chinese concert). hmm, to say the truth, i nv been to any big concert b4 and was happy that he wanted to treat me.. but in fact i thought tat was wasting money. i mean we can juz buy cds to enjoy the music, i know it is the atmosphere, but i juz feel tat money is hard to earn, y spend it like water?y not juz buy me a necklace? lol.. he nv buy me tat b4, even though i realli wan tat.. coz realli wan to wear sth fr him outside..it is like bring him along wif me wherever i go..ai ya, dun think he ever thought of tat, so..nvm..

i dunno y miss him so much de..always wanted to treat him better.. but i dunno what a guy wants..i mean like a example, a gal needs more care and concern, console her when she is sad and give her suprises, etc.. but for a guy, what do they want? they always nv realli tells us(gals) what they realli wan fr us, then how can i dote him leh.. ai yo..i mean i cannot dote him in terms of money, but is there anythings else tat i can do for him?

Yeah!!

2006-06-17T01:04:00.000+08:00

hooray, my new blog skin is up..hehe..
now have a new format..
no more navigation button.. for easy reference.. ha..
thinking of what's new to put in my blog.. hehe..
wanted to change the background as black, but cannot as the pic is in white...argh..

ha, exams finish..finally
now i can watch movies and play all i can..
i shall end here.. nxt time then blog..